After going in circles, I realised this is who I wanna be. Jesus help me be more selfless. Cuz though my heart hurts for others, though it means sacrificing my dreams, my time, my energy, I find no greater joy in U when I'm doing what U want me to. Thr's no greater joy n peace knowing u r listening, knowing ur heart beat, and feeling closer to U than ever before. I want to stand in those gaps!
It's been a long time since I spent this many hours w U. I'm glad I made the decision to stay home. I managed to rest not just physically, but also to rest in U... To not go thru the motions out of obligation. But to go back to the very reason I came back to church and why I'm serving U. To love U because U first loved me. Love...
Your name
Is a shelter for the hurting
Jesus Your name
Is a refuge for the weak
Only Your name
Can redeem the undeserving
Jesus Your name
Holds everything I need
I will live
To carry Your compassion
To love a world that's broken
To be Your hands and feet
I will give
With the life that I've been given
And go beyond religion
To see the world be changed
By the power of Your name
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Poking needles in my body
Wanted to get my vaccination done for Thailand so I went down to the health clinic in school today. In the end, I had to do some Hep B screening first so I hv to go down another day. It's my 2nd time drawing blood and I still don't know wad my blood type is!
After that my arm felt a little woozy. I always hv this thought in my head that my blood will not stop squirting. Haha! In a way it was good I didn't take the jabs today, if not my arms would swell and I wouldn't be able to concentrate on my project which is due tmrw. Gotta go for Hep A, Tetanus and Typhoid jabs tmrw or Mon... ASAP to allow the swelling to subside CUZ I NEED TO STUDY FOR MY EXAM THE FOLLOWING MONDAY! :O What a rush! I may or may not need to get the Hep B vaccination... We'll see!
The school clinic ran out of some vaccines so I need to go to NUH instead. The lady I spoke to when I called NUH was v helpful, until she advised me to take another vaccine for rabies. Guess how much? $500!!! What a rip off! I'd rather let the dog or bat bite me.. Then I'll bite it back. Haha!
Ok back to work!
Ohhhh weather why u keep making me feel so sleepy???
After that my arm felt a little woozy. I always hv this thought in my head that my blood will not stop squirting. Haha! In a way it was good I didn't take the jabs today, if not my arms would swell and I wouldn't be able to concentrate on my project which is due tmrw. Gotta go for Hep A, Tetanus and Typhoid jabs tmrw or Mon... ASAP to allow the swelling to subside CUZ I NEED TO STUDY FOR MY EXAM THE FOLLOWING MONDAY! :O What a rush! I may or may not need to get the Hep B vaccination... We'll see!
The school clinic ran out of some vaccines so I need to go to NUH instead. The lady I spoke to when I called NUH was v helpful, until she advised me to take another vaccine for rabies. Guess how much? $500!!! What a rip off! I'd rather let the dog or bat bite me.. Then I'll bite it back. Haha!
Ok back to work!
Ohhhh weather why u keep making me feel so sleepy???
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Past, Present, Future
Just wanna give a shout out to Jo, my quirkiest and closest friend from secondary sch! It's been 9 years!!! She's 'Different, Different, but Same'. Those who know her will know why! HEHEHE! I really enjoy her company and one of her many strengths is how she makes the atmosphere so comfortable! Am really happy that she's been doing well in school! I bet her resume's gonna be really long! Haha! Anyway, she reminded me about some neoprints we took a long loonnnggg time ago! I'm gonna dig them out and scan them in! Maybe some of you will be shocked out of ur skin when u see the 13/14 yr old us. LOL! But if it's too horrific, I will not upload them. For my eyes and Jo's only! =P Thr's too much I can tell u abt our friendship! Revisiting some old pictures really makes me smile! Am v thkful for her and thkful that though she can be kinda racist towards a certain race I mess up here and thr, she still likes me so much, LOL~ Hoping to meet her after the crazy (deadlines/exams)! I should start calling up some of the others like Chiang, Jabez, Bteo etc lest they say I bo xim. Haha! Just wanna say that friendships are very precious to me... and even when I don't show it, I think of y'all! Reeeeaaaallly! Soompa!!
So anyway a couple of things have led me to think a lot about my career and all... one is Jo's blog post (told u I'm ur faithful stalker), another is how I've been depending on my mom for allowance and all my financial matters and I really don't like it! =( Can't wait to start working so my parents can take a break! =| Am very very blessed that I hv had so many opportunities and my parents hv been so gracious about letting me go...whether it's a holiday trip or school trip. I just wanna be independent and repay them... Though I know I'm forever indebted to them. I mean, no amount of $ can measure up to their love for me! But I just want them to enjoy life already! Anyway I've been looking at websites stating job openings from several government bodies where my interest lies: NPB (National Parks Board/Nparks), STB (Tourism Board), NAC (Arts Council), MFA (Foreign Affairs), CAAS/CAG (Aviation Authority/Changi Airport Grp). Hvn't explored the private sector yet. My field of study is in Geography, mostly the human aspect and I'm gonna do more modules relating to culture and tourism in year 3. So if I don't qualify for honours, just as well, I can start work. but if I do qualify, should I do the extra year just because that's the 'obvious choice'? I don't know. But I will trust God because He has nv failed me! At all of my major transition points, He opened ONE door for me. He knows I'm bad at making decisions and get stressed easily so He saved me the trouble of weighing 2 choices. Haha! I've always thought myself to be very aimless and dreamless...but I guess u can say this is one of my dreams? =B
You hold the future in your hands
You know my dreams and you have a plan
And as you light my way, I'll follow you
My eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all you've done
My minds made up
And you are the only one for me
Jesus, savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know that I am, I am yours!
So anyway a couple of things have led me to think a lot about my career and all... one is Jo's blog post (told u I'm ur faithful stalker), another is how I've been depending on my mom for allowance and all my financial matters and I really don't like it! =( Can't wait to start working so my parents can take a break! =| Am very very blessed that I hv had so many opportunities and my parents hv been so gracious about letting me go...whether it's a holiday trip or school trip. I just wanna be independent and repay them... Though I know I'm forever indebted to them. I mean, no amount of $ can measure up to their love for me! But I just want them to enjoy life already! Anyway I've been looking at websites stating job openings from several government bodies where my interest lies: NPB (National Parks Board/Nparks), STB (Tourism Board), NAC (Arts Council), MFA (Foreign Affairs), CAAS/CAG (Aviation Authority/Changi Airport Grp). Hvn't explored the private sector yet. My field of study is in Geography, mostly the human aspect and I'm gonna do more modules relating to culture and tourism in year 3. So if I don't qualify for honours, just as well, I can start work. but if I do qualify, should I do the extra year just because that's the 'obvious choice'? I don't know. But I will trust God because He has nv failed me! At all of my major transition points, He opened ONE door for me. He knows I'm bad at making decisions and get stressed easily so He saved me the trouble of weighing 2 choices. Haha! I've always thought myself to be very aimless and dreamless...but I guess u can say this is one of my dreams? =B
You hold the future in your hands
You know my dreams and you have a plan
And as you light my way, I'll follow you
My eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all you've done
My minds made up
And you are the only one for me
Jesus, savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know that I am, I am yours!
The Sweet Things in Life
Came home from the airport and bro saw this on my bag:
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Bro: *Feels cheated*
Gotta love the packaging! My favourite parts are eat "before/during/after food", don't "share it" and don't "stop if choking".
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I'm definitely gonna buy and share this cuz it's really YUMMY!! Thks Sam.Low for your thoughtfulness!! =D
Bro: Went to see the Doctor ar?
Me: No la..this is the real medicine! ->
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Bro: *Feels cheated*
Gotta love the packaging! My favourite parts are eat "before/during/after food", don't "share it" and don't "stop if choking".
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Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Till We Meet Again
We sent our Liberia team off for 9 months of missions today. It was a strange feeling! I heard they have a 27hr journey including transits! 7/8 ppl came to send Jo.Wong off too. I didn't talk much to anyone cuz my throat was hurting quite a bit. =/ I feel extremely bummed I couldn't send Nic n Gladys off cuz of my deadlines! EXTREMELY BUMMED!! =((( This has been by far one of the most stressful times I've had. But still I wanna thk God for several things:
1) Completed most of my deadlines before this throat pain head pain body pain thing happened. I really need His healing touch before this Easter's musical! Swallowing's painful, head's heavy each time I get up from lying down and waking up this morning was an agony! But I've still got my voice! =)
2) Got to work with some nice people in school - Wei Seng, Gao Min, Kelley, Isa, Jessica, Shirleen, Andre. Appreciate such good groupmates a lot!
3) My family has been really kind! They know I've been v stressed lately so in different ways, whether subtle or not, they've lent me their support... Like Mom making sure I eat my meals still, Bros fetching me around, Dad knowing I've been staying up for many nights. :')
3) Lost and found my ezlink on Friday. It really is amazing! I usually top up $20 in my card each time but so happen that before I lost the card, something just made me top up $10 instead. Also, I had used up quite a bit for printing already. There was another project due and we were running late but I could not pay for the printing so my grpmate had to use his card. He went to top it up and realised he had only $15 left in his bank account, just enough for the minimum top up of $10 in his ezlink! After submission, I went to the library to ask if anyone had picked my card up but no one did. So I rushed home for net (Bro came to my sch v early to wait for me and my HP batt was dying so I had just enough to contact him). When I got home, some of my net friends were already thr. I thought we had to use the messy hall cuz I didn't hv time to clean my room, but lo and behold, Mom had cleaned and cooled down my room already! I shared my ezlink card story w net and thanked God that there wasn't much in the card and I didn't feel very upset about it. But God is so good! At 9.40, a phone call came and it was a librarian who called my house number. She said someone kindly returned my card. I thought the library closed at 9pm so imagine how happy and surprised I was to get the call! =D What's amazing isn't how I found back my ezlink but how everything was just nice! And net lesson was on God's love. Incredibly apt! ^^
I love You, Jesus!
Anyway I hope I can get Nic and Gladys's address in Chiang Mai so MAYBE I can find them when I get to Thailand for my fieldstudies! I'm sooo happy for all these who have gone to share the joy of knowing Christ!!
14 But how can they call on him to save them unless they believe in him? And how can they believe in him if they have never heard about him? And how can they hear about him unless someone tells them? 15 And how will anyone go and tell them without being sent? That is why the Scriptures say, “How beautiful are the feet of messengers who bring good news!” - Rom 10:14-15 (NLT)
1) Completed most of my deadlines before this throat pain head pain body pain thing happened. I really need His healing touch before this Easter's musical! Swallowing's painful, head's heavy each time I get up from lying down and waking up this morning was an agony! But I've still got my voice! =)
2) Got to work with some nice people in school - Wei Seng, Gao Min, Kelley, Isa, Jessica, Shirleen, Andre. Appreciate such good groupmates a lot!
3) My family has been really kind! They know I've been v stressed lately so in different ways, whether subtle or not, they've lent me their support... Like Mom making sure I eat my meals still, Bros fetching me around, Dad knowing I've been staying up for many nights. :')
3) Lost and found my ezlink on Friday. It really is amazing! I usually top up $20 in my card each time but so happen that before I lost the card, something just made me top up $10 instead. Also, I had used up quite a bit for printing already. There was another project due and we were running late but I could not pay for the printing so my grpmate had to use his card. He went to top it up and realised he had only $15 left in his bank account, just enough for the minimum top up of $10 in his ezlink! After submission, I went to the library to ask if anyone had picked my card up but no one did. So I rushed home for net (Bro came to my sch v early to wait for me and my HP batt was dying so I had just enough to contact him). When I got home, some of my net friends were already thr. I thought we had to use the messy hall cuz I didn't hv time to clean my room, but lo and behold, Mom had cleaned and cooled down my room already! I shared my ezlink card story w net and thanked God that there wasn't much in the card and I didn't feel very upset about it. But God is so good! At 9.40, a phone call came and it was a librarian who called my house number. She said someone kindly returned my card. I thought the library closed at 9pm so imagine how happy and surprised I was to get the call! =D What's amazing isn't how I found back my ezlink but how everything was just nice! And net lesson was on God's love. Incredibly apt! ^^
I love You, Jesus!
Anyway I hope I can get Nic and Gladys's address in Chiang Mai so MAYBE I can find them when I get to Thailand for my fieldstudies! I'm sooo happy for all these who have gone to share the joy of knowing Christ!!
14 But how can they call on him to save them unless they believe in him? And how can they believe in him if they have never heard about him? And how can they hear about him unless someone tells them? 15 And how will anyone go and tell them without being sent? That is why the Scriptures say, “How beautiful are the feet of messengers who bring good news!” - Rom 10:14-15 (NLT)
Without Warning
It came like a flashflood and caught me by surprise. The weirdest sound emanated from my stomach. I didn't even know I was hungry so it was too late to cover the sound. I shrank in my chair and so did my pride.
Sometimes I think my stomach has a mind of its own. It chooses the quietest times and places to growl. Attention-seeker... Always at odds with the rest of me.. like it's out to get me or something.
Psft.
Sometimes I think my stomach has a mind of its own. It chooses the quietest times and places to growl. Attention-seeker... Always at odds with the rest of me.. like it's out to get me or something.
Psft.
Friday, March 23, 2012
Camping in the Library (with a Pleasant Distraction)
Letting my imagination run...
I'm studying abroad. Temperature's kinda cold but I've got my sweater on so it's comfy and cosy!
Check out the background! Same as my blog template! HUR HUR!
But the locals sleeping all around and this particular librarian walking pass every few minutes is ruining the atmosphere! =(
Sorry to the poor innocent soul I unethically used in the photo! Anyway.. can't concentrate fully on work cuz of this new song I heard. Technically it's not new but it's my first time listening to it. I love the melody, I love the words, I love the band! What more can I say? It's a song for those who feel broken, lost, distant, tired...
Presenting, 'Come Back Down' by Lifehouse:
I've been down and out myself but I know the One who has helped me stand up time and time again! This song just reminds me of the kind of friend I desire to be. I know I can't be the same way to every single friend. But to a certain group of friends I treasure deeply, I wanna be the someone who's thr for you, praying for you, listening and not judging, waiting patiently, helping you get back on your feet, make the right decisions, and grow in character. And for those who are my brothers and sisters in Christ, what would sadden me most is if my friendship tears you further from God!
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'Cause at times, I need a friend especially like that too~
I am glad and most thankful to say that I have friends like that in my life! ;)
I am glad and most thankful to say that I have friends like that in my life! ;)
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
If I Had The Time...
I would pick up the violin and guitar, master sign language, explore every nook and cranny of Singapore, take lots of photos while at it, learn video-editing, get a gd video and sound editing software first, learn up all of mom's recipes, do a mural painting, bake for the neighbors/relatives/and friends, sing songs w my sis, shop for a mic, buy some blouses, get some wedding-worthy dresses...
If only I had the time!
If only I had the time!
Weight Issues
The stress has been making me lose weight over the past months. I used to be 46/47 steadily and up to 49 on a SUPER full stomach but now I can't even get past 45. Today was a record low... I dropped below 44. I haven't had much appetitite but I've been forcing myself to eat no matter what and sometimes I even feel like throwing up. And before you get ahead of me, I'm not anorexic or bulimic! I wish to be in the healthy weight range. I abhor wasting food and I actually can eat A LOT!
It all started frm the time I had gastritis which could be due to stress as well (it's a 'chicken or egg first' thing). Then sch... relationships... =/ At times my limbs feel so lifeless and my heart beat goes crazy I don't even know anymore if it's due to stress or my lousy blood circulation. I can't wait for this sem to be over so I can start exercising. Yes, I can't wait to play some badminton!! Maybe I'll gain some muscle mass? Ha...
*Sigh*
It all started frm the time I had gastritis which could be due to stress as well (it's a 'chicken or egg first' thing). Then sch... relationships... =/ At times my limbs feel so lifeless and my heart beat goes crazy I don't even know anymore if it's due to stress or my lousy blood circulation. I can't wait for this sem to be over so I can start exercising. Yes, I can't wait to play some badminton!! Maybe I'll gain some muscle mass? Ha...
*Sigh*
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
I've got company!!
I found 3 other friends going to Thailand!! They chose the Human Geog group too! YAY!!! So excited I'm thinking about my packing list (and shopping list for Stef especially) already! haha!
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